Journal entry, March 19, 2026

Dear Journal,

I’m pissed at myself! I’m in this cycle again of “go, go, go.” “Got to keep moving” is what my father says all the time. But why? Why do I keep trying to “do more”? Aren’t I enough right now in this moment? Do I really need another line on my CV, or another networking notch, or another potential lead in my professional circle?

Right now, I’ve got coals in the fire, and am waiting to see if any of these strike hot. 

I notice that I am probably “go, go, go”—another email to introduce myself; another Google search for teaching programs overseas; another event I can attend to navigate more human-centered marketing—because I connect my sense of belonging and worth to work. Ouch! That’s tough to say out loud.

When I have space in my day, I think something is wrong. 

And all of this “go, go, go” is keeping me from doing the thing I want to do most—write my memoir, enjoy my garden and home, read with my son, and relate to my husband in joyful ways. 

If I were to write a note to my soul self, what advice would I give her? She is the one who can shed off this “go, go, go” mentality and integrate both her urges to achieve with her needs to forget. 

I would tell her:

Remember your values—your presence at the entrance of creativity and beauty is enough.

You can trust the goddesses, mothers, process of miracles. You are the miracle.

You get decide the pace of your life.

You get to decide how full your days are with work.

You need time to process as an HSP. You need breaks, slow transitions, and time to reflect.

Nothing is urgent, and you are enough right now.

You can be excited in anticipation of small miracles to come.

You can be pregnant with the good work bubbling up in you right now.

You can hold it, tend it, and pray for it right now.

You can stroke the cheek and chest of the girl who just wants to belong and be seen. She doesn’t care about your resume or your professional life. She just wants you to accept her as she is, with none of the trappings.